Weight Loss Journey

Saturday, March 14, 2009

So, I have been trying for a few years to loose some weight...well..A lot of weight actually. I used to weight about 120lbs and am not at 185 lbs. Not a big deal for some people..but I am only 5 ft 2 in tall!! I hate the fact that I feel so fat and ugly. I have never felt like the most beautiful girl in the room, but I had never felt like the ugliest. The bad thing about the whole situation is the entire time I was gaining weight, I kept say...it's not that much weight, you can get that burnt off as soon as you get out of school. No big deal...etc. I have been doing Weight Watchers for a while, and actually the first time I did it, I had lost 35 lbs, but gained most of it back after I quit doing the program. It's just so hard to loose weight, and unfair that there are sooo many out there that don't have to count calories because their metabolism is so high. Needless to say I have lost some weight since I started the program again a few weeks ago, but I had a really bad week this week and gained some weight. I hate it...it makes me feel like a loser. I just want to wake up and feel good about myself and I know that will never happen until I loose some of this weight.

Ugh....